May 2013
1 post
February 2013
8 posts
God Only Knows I've Tried
Wrap me up in a bolt of lightning, send me on my way still smiling. Maybe that’s just the way I should go, straight toward the unknown. I’m not sure if I’ll even be able to handle losing you on the weekends, to lose it all feels so different. I know, I’ve said it all so many times. I will change my ways, no never mind. You can call me anything you see in your eyes. Call me...
The Beginning of Unforgettable Memories
I bought another bottle this morning to get rid of all these thoughts in my head. You can always stay up late at night contemplating your heart but the liquor in your blood stream will never fade the memories that you have had. I wake up every morning with the same old thought in the back of my soul. I just need to learn to set this bottle down and walk back out the door. It’s a little bit...
January 2013
18 posts
Learning To Start Again
I’m just learning to walk again. I believe I have waited long enough, but where do I begin. I’m just learning to talk again. I’m getting good at starting over.
Judge Me
No sappy thoughts in my head and I’m feeling like I’m Peter Pan, minus the tights and the fairies. Happy to see how far I’ve come to the same place, think again my dream and imaginations perfectly at peace so I move along a bit higher.
Shut The Fuck Up
Those kids that get drunk off their parents beer while their on vacation and describe it as a rave. Sit the fuck down bitch.
Be Present
Our favorite moments were those when we let go of all expectations and worries and just simply celebrated the very moment we are living. In those moments, we are truly present and listen to grace.
We Have To Make Good Nights Happen
I just bought an eighth of sour diesel, probably one of the best out there. I plan on sitting in my room with an amazing inner peace and smile on my face. I just want to lay on my bed and drown myself in good vibrations.
Higher Than The Ceiling
I’m just sitting here contemplating my laptop screen, with red eyes and food. I just got so far into the clouds; starting to question if there is a come down. I just put the orange juice in the dishwasher and these teachers expect me to do homework like this? I don’t belong here. It’s just another adventure.
Holy Socks & Faded Shoes
We all have those holy socks and faded shoes, old scars we cover with bad tattoos. But what about the memories, we can’t cover them? It seems everybody has broken hearts and misery, bad dreams from reality. It’s a struggle to say you can’t rely on the bottle tonight.
More Like Complicated & Ugly
And when I thought life was elegant, she brought me down.
Most Time Is Wasted
I’m just tired of wasting my time on people who don’t care about me. I wish finding the person who will hold your heart and never let go, be so much easier. It seems like ever since junior high, my life seemed to get high then bring me back down low. I just need to concentrate on the positive things and keep focused on the people who are there for me when I need them most.
Northern California
I just want to fast forward my life to the day me and someone special set out for an adventure to the northern west coast. I just want to wake up every single morning super early, roll over and see that one girl, overdose on coffee, and hike the mountains. I want to close my eyes every night in comfort, peace and true happiness. I want to set sail in the ocean and drop an anchor and just watch the...
Straight Bed Sheets
I have realized it’s hard to let go when you already know her in so many ways nobody else does. You know you can’t let go when you know her heart was there before. It hurts knowing you wake up every single morning to an empty bed with a lost heart at ease, and a memory in my soul. It’s been over a month and you have no fucking idea how bad this hurts. I don’t even know how...
You Will Not See Me Fall
Some say love is a burning thing, that it makes a fiery ring. It’s only depressing because the only way I know love, is as a fading thing.
December 2012
2 posts
The Blood Stream Escape
These past few weeks have been hard on me, mentally. I have experienced days on end of people ignoring me and feeling unwanted. I just sit around after work and put over excessive amounts of liquor and alcohol into my blood stream. I have also found myself with the need to chain smoke cheap cigarettes just for the simple fact it takes shit off my mind. I have nothing more besides myself and the...
Stupid Thoughts That Rotten My Little Mind
I certainly understand that most of you don’t give a shit about what I have to say but here’s the thing, even if I did know everything, I wouldn’t tell little peasants like you. And here is just the start of a few thoughts on my mind lately.
I hate when people plagiarize obscure passages and pawn it off as their own. Who are you fibbing? This is another idea to impress others?...
June 2012
2 posts
Regrets
I hate when people say they regret the things they’ve done in the past. I don’t regret a single thing I have done in the past, only because it’s helped me move on to become a better person.
Goodbyes
Throughout all the times in life, I’ve only made a few goodbyes. The goodbyes for the better and the ones that hurt you mentally. It’s so real when someone you care about so much is gone. You never really know what it’s like or how much you care for somebody until they’re gone. No matter how far, distance won’t matter. You may be thousands of miles away but distance...
May 2012
4 posts
Schools Out For The Summer
I’m so excited right now, today’s my last day of the school year. I can’t wait to get out of this small town. I just have one more year left. I hate finals. I hate the two-faced kids. I hate the farmers. I hate the people who want to be like somebody else. I hate the drama. I hate this town. I’m ready to move on with my life and enjoy the ride, whether there’s bad...
Oh It's Just Another Writers Block
The past week others music has inspired me to pick the pencil back up and start writing again. I’ll get all ready and have the instrument in my hands and nothing will flow. I try to push every thought and detail into poetry but the words just don’t look right. I always happen to save the document or throw it away and forget about it. I used to save everything I had written. I’m...
The Moment Not The Past
I’ve been staying up past the morning, lately just getting shit faced and taking sweet pictures. I found a big passion for photography within the past few years and just bought this sick camera. I’ve been interested in the music industry all my life but I don’t have any hopes for that dream. I plan to attend college to study journalism and travel the world. I love new experiences...
Stillness Speaks
These past few years have been the most alarming and thoughtful in my life. I had been having feelings, very uncomfortable feelings such as symptoms like the start of a seizure; fear and anxiety. I had been going to the largest hospital in the nearest city for scans every six months. After so many scans and results, the doctors found out it’s not my brain. Maybe I’m just crazy.
I had...
